Change, change, change.....

Change is Good!

Today was a changing day for me. My direct boss worked her last day, I could see in her face and here in her tone of voice that she was nerves and sad to leaving her position.

The change in her life is huge - she has been with the company for eleven years and flat out for the last 3 years as if she has just been treading water.

Taking on a management position  three years ago her life changed and took on so much. She was not a great boss but the support was not there and her position was constantly changing.

I was watching her today saying last goodbyes and getting ready to walk out a door that she has walked into  for the last 11 years. It was sad and moving.

I asked myself these questions

• Why would you become a manager
• Were is the support for managers
• Are they set up to fail
• What makes a good manager

Sometimes the things close are just out of focus!

So the position that I am working in is temporary and is coming to a close. I am trying to work out were my life is going and what to do.

Things I have done to make change my life or move it forward:

• Applied for an acting position for my bosses job
• Applied for a job in accounts
• Applied for the management accommodation

Thinking the my bosses position today - why did I apply but I am 99% sure I do not have the position. The interview is the worst I have ever been to. 

Things I said in my interview:

• There was a personality test and I said "oh I did ones of these before and it I was unstable"
• Asked about weaknesses - "I do not tolerate peers or managers that do not work to the same standard as me".
• What are do you think the job entails "managing people" was the only thing that seemed to leave my mouth.

So here I am. I know that change is coming and it is coming soon no matter what. I can not stop and I can not control what is going to happen. I can do things to sway it. 

I am a pebble on the beach getting dragged around by the sea!

Follow-up: I am doing yoga every night before bed and I did a 5k run / walk the other day. I am getting my life back in some sort of order. I am trying to write a life plan - that is not going as well.